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( wk 10 dy 1 )

[ambidexter]

this is about mako.

( wk 10 dy 1 )

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[ oh fucking christ ]

so why not ask her

Re: ( wk 10 dy 1 )

[ambidexter]

[ How eloquent, but yeah basically. ]

i kissed her and right now it's a little weird
are you gonna hear me out or not?

( wk 10 dy 1 )

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[ w h y ]

alright what

( wk 10 dy 1 )

[ambidexter]

do you trust me?
and fuck around, i'm asking you seriously.

( wk 10 dy 1 )

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yes

[ because it's that simple. he does. ]

( wk 10 dy 1 )

[ambidexter]

[ there's really no other way to ask this. ]

do you trust me with mako?

( wk 10 dy 1 )

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youre her copilot

[ which says a world and a half. about how chuck defines trust- that the be all end all exists in a cockpit and it's the only real intimacy he knows. because no one knows better than he does-

you don't leave your copilot. ]

( wk 10 dy 1 )

[ambidexter]

[ except he did. he saved himself in the end, but it's just semantics, isn't it? ]

that's not what i asked.

( wk 10 dy 1 )

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[ those are questions for people who didn't have to live with being left behind. being chosen over someone else. ]

yes i did

( wk 10 dy 1 )

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[ you shouldn't have had to die without your father. one day raleigh will quit hiding behind survival and finally say that to your face. ]

not anymore?

( wk 10 dy 1 )

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war ending doesnt change that
you still drift

( wk 10 dy 1 )

[ambidexter]

you ever wonder what it would've been like, if you and mako worked out?

( wk 10 dy 1 )

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you ever wonder what it wouldve been like if the kaiju never came out of the pacific

( wk 10 dy 1 )

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i would've gone to college with jaz. would've gone back to france, looked up our cousins there. settled with dad. been an uncle to yancy's kids.
so yes, i do.
i wouldn't be asking you if i didn't care what you had to say, chuck.

( wk 10 dy 1 )

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if wed been copilots
wed both be dead

( wk 10 dy 1 )

[ambidexter]

i know.

[ and maybe— but no. ]

you were right about me, you know.

( wk 10 dy 1 )

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about which part

( wk 10 dy 1 )

[ambidexter]

all of it, the first time.
she doesn't deserve a wash-up like me.

( wk 10 dy 1 )

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oh fucking christ
you in love with her?

( wk 10 dy 1 )

[ambidexter]

[ fuck you. ]

yes.

( wk 10 dy 1 )

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fuck

( wk 10 dy 1 )

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fucking

( wk 10 dy 1 )

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then stop bitching

( wk 10 dy 1 )

[ambidexter]

you are an asshole